Saturday, October 19
There is a lot to be said for calmly standing in the face of uncertainty and refusing to walk away, or give into fear and doubt that comes with all the unanswered questions. To be there, to stay there, regardless. It takes faith. Faith that after the chaos, when the weather clears, that the sunrise will be there and you will be there to feel it. It's worth it, because that's when all the magic, which was hidden in the uncertainty, becomes clear. That's when the answers come and the uncertainty falls away. So many don't get to see this, to feel this, to know this. Sometimes they flee, sometimes they close their eyes, sometimes they stop listening, stop talking, they stop wanting to get through and try with all their might to get back. They want desperately to get back to a place that doesn't exist anymore and instead of fighting with hope for the dream they could have, they fight with desperation for the safety of the past, not realizing it's an illusion, it's gone. They don't understand that it's in the dream of the future where all the love is. In their panic they destroy, often unintentionally, the bridges to this future - leaving themselves in a place of disrepair where reconstruction can be significant. Life can be full of many of these moments, it has been for me. I have stood there before, I do it now, and I can do it again. I can wait for the winds to die down, for the dust to clear, to see and claim a future filled with light, hope, faith, and love. The winds are dying down even now, in this exact moment, and I can see the sunrise!