here, mindscapes are laid bare in hopes that the inquisitive traveler will be mindful not to trodden them
Saturday, May 14
i just don't know how to be a good parent, the solution completely escapes me; i am in waters for which i am unprepared, fighting a current i cannot see nor predict; and i feel that my whole being hinges on the outcome of this encounter - and yet - i am so ill equipt. every time i talk to him it is measured in degrees of failure, my failure. the god above has made a grave error in trusting me in this task.